Lady of the Moon

Just wanted to share a beautiful chant I found some time ago, hope you like it!

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Tip of my Tongue

All the talk about the shopkeeper and me not being at the Imbolc ritual had me remembering the Mabon ritual I attended. I loved it and it was wonderful, but there was one thing there I didn’t really believe in or felt comfortable with, even though I cried when it happened. There was a certain word she used describing it, what it was. During the ritual she went away and sat under a tree by a large slab of stone, and she was, for lack of better words, “possessed” by the Goddess. She lent her body to the Goddess so we could talk directly to her and she to us. It was a strong feeling, but I was still uncomfortable with it, and when something doesn’t feel good, you shouldn’t do it, right?

So what I’m asking is, what was this she did and was I right to be uncomfortable with it?

Blessed Be,

Vaettr

The Gray Area

 

I was in my favorite store today, the esoteric shop where I buy all my “witchy” stuff as well as the henna I use for my hair. The owner is a high priestess and has Sabbat Ceremonies sometimes. I’ve been on one and I loved it, it felt like I was part of the family, even though I’m mostly solitary and didn’t believe everything that happened (when she was “possessed” by the Goddess and She talked through the shop owner, don’t remember what it’s called). A couple of days ago they celebrated Imbolc, and I didn’t join in. I’m a student and sometimes I can’t afford to spend 29 dollar/19 pounds on a ceremony although I dearly want to. Instead I did something small at home.

So imagine how I felt when I went in there and mentioned the ceremony and hoped they’d had a good time and that I was sad I wasn’t there, she replied with that I couldn’t be in the gray zone all the time. That threw me for a bit, I felt a little sad to be honest. Just because I didn’t join them for Imbolc doesn’t mean that I didn’t celebrate on my own (which was a short meditation, since I study about 200% at the moment). And that she said it infront of other customers made me feel even worse. Am I a bad witch/pagan just because I didn’t join them or because I can’t be as fully pledged into it as they are?

Being pagan is something I can’t give up, even if my life is stressful and I don’t have time to truly commit. And to be told I’m basically not as good as the others who go to the shop’s ceremonies hit med hard. Am I overreacting, did she have point?

What do you guys think?

Sincerely, a slightly sad and wondering Vaettr

A Game of Tag

I’ve been tagged by Diandra for The Multi-Faceted Experience! Now trying to come up with stuff I haven’t said before…

Rules:
1. Post these rules.
2. You must post 11 random things about yourself.
3. Answer the questions the tagger set for you in their post.
4. Create 11 new questions for the people you tag to answer.
5. Go to their blog and tell them that you have tagged them.
6. No stuff in the tagging section about ‘you are tagged if you are reading this.’ blah blah blah, you legitimately have to tag 11 people! (Diandra and Vaettr says: I don’t give a crap how you tag people or if you tag people at all. This is supposed to be fun. ^^ )

11 Random Things About Me:

  1. I absolutely adore rainbows, I have about 10 clothing articles that’s rainbow colored and 3 of those are mittens, cap and a scarf, so I use them simultaneously. I don’t get why people always stare at me, do you? XD
  2. I’m the best procrastinator in the world, even now I’m doing other stuff than I’m supposed to be (I should be studying, sitting with a friend at the library).
  3. I’m a huge slash fan, and for those who doesn’t know what slash is, it’s the same thing as yaoi, or boylove. So basically I read AND write a lot of homoerotic stories, especially Harry Potter fanfiction. (fanfiction is when you take someone else’s work and rewrite to you own liking, for no profit, and post it online).
  4. Computer games takes up most of my life, and I can’t seem to hate myself for it. Games like Sims 3, Skyrim, Dragon Age, Assassin’s Creed and tons of others are so lovely. It’s like disappearing into your own little world, like you can with a book, but in the game you control what happens, not the author.
  5. I stuggle a lot with my faith, although my heart is with the Moon and the Goddess, I have a history of doubting and christianity behind me. With few around me that has the same faith, and those who thinks I believe to little, it’s difficult to really put my heart in my beliefs.
  6. I’ve gone from Nu-metal to Folk-metal to K-Pop when it comes to taste in music. Although I listen to all of it, and I love folk-inspired music, my heart lies with Super Junior, Shinee and 2NE1 at the moment..
  7. I have different styles depending on my mood. I can be dressed in pyjamas all day, or full black and make-up if I feel sexy, but most times I love my harem pants and a printed top to go with it.
  8. My dream is to be reincarnated as a good-looking asian gayboy.
  9. I have no coordination when it comes to balance or dancing at all, I’m really clumsy.. But I love dancing and singing regardless!
  10. I’m addicted to tea, I have about 20-25 different flavors at home at all times.
  11. I live with my boyfriend, two roomates and 2 pets (which makes practicing your faith really difficult)

11 questions I get to answer:

1. What was your worst date, and why? Right, this is a difficult question to answer, because in Sweden we really don’t “date” like in other countries. At least, you don’t do go to dates really unless you’re already in an established relationship. And if we do, we don’t really call it dates. Swedes are allowed to disagree with me.. XD
2. How do you like to eat your fruit? Umm, by biting them and eating them? I don’t cut them into bits or something like that.
3. What weird items would I find if I went through your wardrobe? Lots of rainbow-coloured clothing and harem-pants, is that counted as weird?
4. Which animal usually considered a pet scares you the most/do you find most disgusting? When I was little I was scared of dogs, but now I live with one and I love him. I’m not really into birds as pets I guess.
5. How long would you survive in the wilderness and which skills would you use? Wow, I guess a couple of days. I would try to remember everything I learned from when I was in the scouts, like hugging trees and staying in one spot, keeping warm and such.
6. Is there something you always wanted to do but have been afraid to try? Lots, Parkour is one of them.
7. What is the weirdest movie you have ever seen? Donnie Darko is one weird movie, let me tell you.
8. Which god or goddess scares you? The christian God, he seems so bipolar. (note: I’m bipolar myself so I know what I’m talking about.)
9. And which one annoys you the most? Loki, I like him, but did he have to be so mean to everyone? What’s the deal with killing (by proxy) Baldur?
10. Do you have any annoying habits? I’m forgetful and absent-minded.
11. Where do you want to be in three years? I want to be finished with my degree, still live on Gotland and have been travelling a bit. And I want to have a steady job I love by then as well.
 My (11) to tag are:
And my questions to them are:
  1. Can you remember your last dream?
  2. Rainy days or snowy winters, why?
  3. What is the hardest thing you’ve ever had to do?
  4. True love with guarantee for heartbreak or to never have loved at all?
  5. What is your quirkiest habit and how long have you had it?
  6. What in life, is beautiful to you? Where do you find inspiration?
  7. If ghosts can walk through walls and glide down stairs, why don’t they fall through the floor?
  8. Can you describe your life with a six word sentence?
  9. What would you like to reincarnate to?
  10. What turns you on creatively, spiritually or emotionally?
  11. What is your favorite word?