Adrenaline on the Job – Catching Thieves

I got such an adrenaline rush on the job today. I work at McDonalds and tonight I had the night shift. While we were cleaning after closing time and a guy was yelling about wanting a cinnamon bun. There were some left but we wouldn’t sell or give it to him since we were closed. After a while he stopped and later his friend tried to steal one and run away. I saw it as it happened and immediately yelled and ran after and tackled him. I took him by the collar and forced him backwards and down while my workmate took the cinnamon bun from the guy who was dying from laughter. I was pissed at the time, now though it’s just hilarious.

I stopped a cinnamon bun-thief tonight, aren’t I awesome?

Jag fick en sådan adrenalinkick på jobbet idag. Jag arbetar på McDonalds och ikväll hade jag nattskift. Medan vi städade efter stängningstid var det en kille skrek om att vilja ha en kanelbulle. Det fanns några kvar men vi ville inte sälja eller ge den till honom eftersom vi var stängda. Efter ett tag slutade han och senare försökte hans vän stjäla en och springa iväg. Jag såg det som det hände och omedelbart skrek och sprang efter och tog tag i honom. Jag tog honom i kragen och tvingade honom bakåt och nedåt medan min arbetskamrat tog kanelbullen från killen som var nästa dog av skratt. Jag var förbannad då, nu om det är bara otroligt roligt

Jag stoppade en kanelbulle-tjuv ikväll, är jag inte fantastisk?


Once In A Blue Moon; Tarot Reading

Today I decided to do a bit of meditation under the blue moon, and while I was sitting there I felt like I should ask my tarot deck a question. So I did, and the question in the front of my mind had to do with my current relationship status. My relationship with my boyfriend recently ended and I was meditating on how I should act taking my first steps into the life of being single again. To this question, I got the King of Swords. Now, I’m not the best at reading tarot, I’ve had my deck for maybe 3 years now but I still can’t read them good without a book and interpret them well enough.

What I got though from the card is that it feels like even though there are a lot going on around me right now, a whirlwind of work, essays, new people coming to the island to study, I should keep a cool head. So even if I may want to throw myself into a new relationship or even have a passionate, thrilling night once in a while, I need to take a step back and just breathe and be in solitude in that aspect for a little time. And I think that is absolutely right. I may want someone to kiss and cuddle and talk to, but my journey right now needs to take an inward path, and I need to do that alone. So even if the fire of passion or the whirlwind of air want to grab me away in a wild dance, I have to focus and connect with the grounding earth and the calming water.

Now this may not really be what the King of Swords stands for, but this is what spoke out inside me, and I feel I should follow that inner suggestion.

What do you think the King of Swords stands for? And what have you been doing under the blue moon?

Blessed Be

Long Time No See

Så, det var ett tag sedan jag uppdaterade min blogg. Mitt liv och min andlighet har legat lite på glid och jag har inte orkat hålla på så mycket med bloggandet. Det kanske inte blir så mycket bloggande nu heller, men nu vet ni i alla fall att jag lever. 🙂


Lady of the Moon

Just wanted to share a beautiful chant I found some time ago, hope you like it!

Tip of my Tongue

All the talk about the shopkeeper and me not being at the Imbolc ritual had me remembering the Mabon ritual I attended. I loved it and it was wonderful, but there was one thing there I didn’t really believe in or felt comfortable with, even though I cried when it happened. There was a certain word she used describing it, what it was. During the ritual she went away and sat under a tree by a large slab of stone, and she was, for lack of better words, “possessed” by the Goddess. She lent her body to the Goddess so we could talk directly to her and she to us. It was a strong feeling, but I was still uncomfortable with it, and when something doesn’t feel good, you shouldn’t do it, right?

So what I’m asking is, what was this she did and was I right to be uncomfortable with it?

Blessed Be,


The Gray Area


I was in my favorite store today, the esoteric shop where I buy all my “witchy” stuff as well as the henna I use for my hair. The owner is a high priestess and has Sabbat Ceremonies sometimes. I’ve been on one and I loved it, it felt like I was part of the family, even though I’m mostly solitary and didn’t believe everything that happened (when she was “possessed” by the Goddess and She talked through the shop owner, don’t remember what it’s called). A couple of days ago they celebrated Imbolc, and I didn’t join in. I’m a student and sometimes I can’t afford to spend 29 dollar/19 pounds on a ceremony although I dearly want to. Instead I did something small at home.

So imagine how I felt when I went in there and mentioned the ceremony and hoped they’d had a good time and that I was sad I wasn’t there, she replied with that I couldn’t be in the gray zone all the time. That threw me for a bit, I felt a little sad to be honest. Just because I didn’t join them for Imbolc doesn’t mean that I didn’t celebrate on my own (which was a short meditation, since I study about 200% at the moment). And that she said it infront of other customers made me feel even worse. Am I a bad witch/pagan just because I didn’t join them or because I can’t be as fully pledged into it as they are?

Being pagan is something I can’t give up, even if my life is stressful and I don’t have time to truly commit. And to be told I’m basically not as good as the others who go to the shop’s ceremonies hit med hard. Am I overreacting, did she have point?

What do you guys think?

Sincerely, a slightly sad and wondering Vaettr

A Game of Tag

I’ve been tagged by Diandra for The Multi-Faceted Experience! Now trying to come up with stuff I haven’t said before…

1. Post these rules.
2. You must post 11 random things about yourself.
3. Answer the questions the tagger set for you in their post.
4. Create 11 new questions for the people you tag to answer.
5. Go to their blog and tell them that you have tagged them.
6. No stuff in the tagging section about ‘you are tagged if you are reading this.’ blah blah blah, you legitimately have to tag 11 people! (Diandra and Vaettr says: I don’t give a crap how you tag people or if you tag people at all. This is supposed to be fun. ^^ )

11 Random Things About Me:

  1. I absolutely adore rainbows, I have about 10 clothing articles that’s rainbow colored and 3 of those are mittens, cap and a scarf, so I use them simultaneously. I don’t get why people always stare at me, do you? XD
  2. I’m the best procrastinator in the world, even now I’m doing other stuff than I’m supposed to be (I should be studying, sitting with a friend at the library).
  3. I’m a huge slash fan, and for those who doesn’t know what slash is, it’s the same thing as yaoi, or boylove. So basically I read AND write a lot of homoerotic stories, especially Harry Potter fanfiction. (fanfiction is when you take someone else’s work and rewrite to you own liking, for no profit, and post it online).
  4. Computer games takes up most of my life, and I can’t seem to hate myself for it. Games like Sims 3, Skyrim, Dragon Age, Assassin’s Creed and tons of others are so lovely. It’s like disappearing into your own little world, like you can with a book, but in the game you control what happens, not the author.
  5. I stuggle a lot with my faith, although my heart is with the Moon and the Goddess, I have a history of doubting and christianity behind me. With few around me that has the same faith, and those who thinks I believe to little, it’s difficult to really put my heart in my beliefs.
  6. I’ve gone from Nu-metal to Folk-metal to K-Pop when it comes to taste in music. Although I listen to all of it, and I love folk-inspired music, my heart lies with Super Junior, Shinee and 2NE1 at the moment..
  7. I have different styles depending on my mood. I can be dressed in pyjamas all day, or full black and make-up if I feel sexy, but most times I love my harem pants and a printed top to go with it.
  8. My dream is to be reincarnated as a good-looking asian gayboy.
  9. I have no coordination when it comes to balance or dancing at all, I’m really clumsy.. But I love dancing and singing regardless!
  10. I’m addicted to tea, I have about 20-25 different flavors at home at all times.
  11. I live with my boyfriend, two roomates and 2 pets (which makes practicing your faith really difficult)

11 questions I get to answer:

1. What was your worst date, and why? Right, this is a difficult question to answer, because in Sweden we really don’t “date” like in other countries. At least, you don’t do go to dates really unless you’re already in an established relationship. And if we do, we don’t really call it dates. Swedes are allowed to disagree with me.. XD
2. How do you like to eat your fruit? Umm, by biting them and eating them? I don’t cut them into bits or something like that.
3. What weird items would I find if I went through your wardrobe? Lots of rainbow-coloured clothing and harem-pants, is that counted as weird?
4. Which animal usually considered a pet scares you the most/do you find most disgusting? When I was little I was scared of dogs, but now I live with one and I love him. I’m not really into birds as pets I guess.
5. How long would you survive in the wilderness and which skills would you use? Wow, I guess a couple of days. I would try to remember everything I learned from when I was in the scouts, like hugging trees and staying in one spot, keeping warm and such.
6. Is there something you always wanted to do but have been afraid to try? Lots, Parkour is one of them.
7. What is the weirdest movie you have ever seen? Donnie Darko is one weird movie, let me tell you.
8. Which god or goddess scares you? The christian God, he seems so bipolar. (note: I’m bipolar myself so I know what I’m talking about.)
9. And which one annoys you the most? Loki, I like him, but did he have to be so mean to everyone? What’s the deal with killing (by proxy) Baldur?
10. Do you have any annoying habits? I’m forgetful and absent-minded.
11. Where do you want to be in three years? I want to be finished with my degree, still live on Gotland and have been travelling a bit. And I want to have a steady job I love by then as well.
 My (11) to tag are:
And my questions to them are:
  1. Can you remember your last dream?
  2. Rainy days or snowy winters, why?
  3. What is the hardest thing you’ve ever had to do?
  4. True love with guarantee for heartbreak or to never have loved at all?
  5. What is your quirkiest habit and how long have you had it?
  6. What in life, is beautiful to you? Where do you find inspiration?
  7. If ghosts can walk through walls and glide down stairs, why don’t they fall through the floor?
  8. Can you describe your life with a six word sentence?
  9. What would you like to reincarnate to?
  10. What turns you on creatively, spiritually or emotionally?
  11. What is your favorite word?

Pet or Familiar?

I’ve seen people write about this subject, and I though I would give it a try. I know the witch and her black cat-image is not totally true, although I have to admit that my cat Velvet is black. I have heard many theories about whether your pet is a familiar or just a regular family pet. Some just say that their pet is a familiar, while some claim that the familiar is an animal that comes to you, not the other way around. It’s not just about having a cuddly animal that you love to pet and play with. A familiar is a pet that also give you strength and a boost, so to say, during rituals and such.

Personally, while I love both my pets, my cat Velvet and my dog Spike, who you can coo over in the picture above, I do not feel that they are my familiars, even do I feel a connection with them both. I’ve had Velvet for 2 years and Spike is my boyfriend’s whom I met a year ago. I love them both dearly, and I know they reciprocate. Spike is always by my side, even now he’s lying at my feet. So no, they are not my familiar, but they’re no less loved or important because of this.

Do you have a familiar or a beloved pet?

A Prayer For Snow

My prayer for snow kind of went overboard, there’s now a Class 1 Storm Warning where I live and the ferry to Gotland is delayed until tomorrow morning.. I was so looking forward to getting home.. *sigh* Instead I’m sitting here in my dad’s kitchen, studying and blogging. It’s allright though, got some more time with my family, would have been nice to have been home by now though.

My boyfriend and our animals are here to, our dog and cat. Will be interesting to get 4 bags, 2 people and 2 animals into a car and then into the boat.. XD But we’ll manage, we always do.

Have you also prayed too much to the weather gods?

Blessed Be, Vaettr

Happy New Year

It’s not Samhain, but it’s 2012 with fireworks and barking dogs and laughing friends and smoke and good food and big bangs. Good and Bad, just like the past year was and the coming year will be.

We hope for a better year and pray for one as well, but prayers can only do so much. This year I will take much into my own hands, but I won’t be doing it alone.

I loved the past year despite its hardship, and I hope I’ll come to love this coming one as well. Only the future awaits, and it’s up to us what we do with it.

Dream big, and blessed be..

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